Monday, May 31, 2010

On the count of attraction, I plead guilty

You breeze your way through the streets of my heart and expect me to look away while a whiff of you sets me afire. A glimpse of you and all that I am is ready to follow you to hell and back. If all you want is my peace, here I am ready to give you a piece of my soul. Only if you would turn around, I could show you a fraction of the passion that I hold for you.

What attracts you may ask. I have no answer nor would I want to search and find the answer. The question is tantalizingly out of reach and as long as it is out of my grasp, I will strive to find out more about you; I would want to lose my solitude in your company. If all it takes is one lifetime to win you over, I shall give it and expect to give more. As time leaves its traces on my body, I want to leave traces of my love in your heart.

With all this in my mind and a heart-stopping vision in front of me, I approach you to only let you know that you are my dream poured into an earthenware of your body, molded with the fire of your soul, enlightened by the radiance of your smile. You storm my mind with the disdain of a tempest and I want to know if you would also calm the waters rippling in my heart with your presence. I profess my love to you as I would profess my allegiance to the king of my lands.

What burns in me and what do I know of you? is the thought on your mind. I do not know you except before this very minute nor for the life of me can I answer what burns me to tell you so. But the one thing that is imprinted into my very thoughts is that I want to be with you from this moment on. I do not know if my thoughts are right, nor do I know if you perceive my truest intentions. I believe the future will tell you the fiber that built me if you were to be my life. If you reject me outright, I shall not rescind my love; Rather, I shall apologize for my impetuous thought and action.

The apology is not because I disturbed you without purpose, but because the distress that I caused is to the one I am in love with. The apology is not because of the sadness I would feel for a loss but because of the happiness that I would have shared with you. The apology is not because you do not like me, but because I am attracted to you. If it was not love at first sight, I shall apologize for my attraction. If it was love at first sight, I shall apologize for the attraction.

Now, I move on, to the next big storm in life. I shall neither curse you nor forget you nor shall I regret the loss, but I shall watch my feelings and draw bliss out of every emotion I savored. As I meet the next big person in my life, I shall not be afraid to apologize for being attracted. For, it seems, an apology relieves you from the guilt of attraction.